A [closed-minded] fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his personal opinions [unwittingly displaying his self-indulgence and his stupidity]. - Proverbs 18:2 (AMP)
If you've ever read any of my previous blog posts, you will probably remember some of the discussions I've made on the horrors of social media... Mainly, my own struggle and addiction to it. Yes, addiction. In fact, I never really realized how much of an addiction I had to social media until recently.
For years, I had allowed social media to do a lot of damage to me. For hours on end, I would scroll through Instagram, Facebook, and Pinterest. I would read opinions, political posts, and arguments. Then, I would participate in those arguments. I would make excuses for myself by telling myself that, “It isn’t wrong to state my opinion or tell people the truth.” But then, those arguments would get heated as strangers commented hateful things to me. Then, in my rage, I would turn and do the same cruel things back to them.
I knew for years that I had a toxic relationship with social media, though, I didn't want to admit it was an addiction. I knew I was perpetually depressed and anxious due to social media. I knew that I was ignoring my husband in order to scroll through mindless, foolish posts. I knew that I felt angry and fearful because of the political content I was reading. But I just couldn’t seem to stop. I kept getting more and more fearful and depressed as I continued my downward spiral.
Finally, after a really bad, argumentative, and anxiety-filled day of social media use, I knew that I couldn't keep doing what I was doing. It was taking too much of a toll on my mental health.
I had tried to stop my social media use many times before. All to no avail. Mainly because I didn't want to admit there was a problem with myself. I wanted to give excuses for myself. Excuses like, "Well, sometimes social media makes me happy!" Or, "I want to stay in contact with people I don't know that well." Or, "My social media use isn't that bad."
A couple days later, I was reading Proverbs. I stumbled upon this verse: A [closed-minded] fool does not delight in understanding, But only in revealing his personal opinions [unwittingly displaying his self-indulgence and his stupidity]. - Proverbs 18:2 (AMP) This verse, (along with another verse my husband had shared with me, which I will discuss more about below) was life-giving to me. In fact, this verse was my exact problem! I was foolishly and stupidly acting like my personal opinion was something that the whole world needed to hear and listen to.
Suddenly, verses that related to social media began popping up everywhere for me. (Isn't it interesting how an ancient book can relate to something so modern as social media??) These verses helped me take the first steps into healing by fully disabling my Instagram page and uninstalling every social media app from my phone. Now, the only way I can access my only existing social media account (my P40 Ministries page on Facebook,) is through my work computer.