"Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working." - James 5:16 (ESV)
I feel rather ashamed of myself today, and I feel I owe all of my followers an apology. Allow me to explain:
Firstly, I wrote a post several days ago about praying for all people. Though I said I would pray for others every single day, I have not done it. Truthfully, I have barely been praying at all. I have made myself a hypocrite. Friends, I am so sorry for this. I owe God an apology as well for not spending time in prayer as I promised.
Secondly, I have not stayed off social media like I vowed to do. In fact, I have been on social media more than ever. Same goes for the news. When my mom called me out on this behavior a couple days ago, I brushed it off and said it was no big deal. My husband called me out as well. As someone who reads my posts, he knew that I had promised to stay off social media until further notice. But as he saw me scrolling through, he asked, "What happened to you being off social media?" I basically told him to leave me alone, and that it was none of his business. The worst part is, I knew I was being a liar and a hypocrite. I owe my husband, my mom, my readers, and my God an apology for this behavior.
Thirdly, I have been spreading discord. I have purposely started arguments over social media with a couple groups of people. This included the members of We The Kingdom. I stated my opinions indignantly at them. Frannie, the female vocalist, answered me with understanding. We ended up having a good discussion. Afterwards, I felt ashamed of myself rather than justified. I realized I was accusing her of something that I was doing myself: spreading discord. I apologized to her for my behavior. I also apologize to everyone else I have argued with over social media. It was silly and I feel ashamed of myself.
Friends, it is hard for me to be this vulnerable with you. It's embarrassing. I don't want to admit the faults I have. But James 5:16 says,"Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working."
I am so thankful that God gives grace and forgiveness. I am thankful for your forgiveness, too, dear friend. I am ashamed of my hypocrisy, my lies, and my anger and discord. I want to be better. I want to actually begin praying for other people everyday like I said I would! I want to stop letting my emotions control me. I want to stop lying about stuff I plan on doing, and really start doing it. I want to live more like Jesus. I want to pray powerful prayers!