Is What I Have Good Enough? - Can God Really Use Me?

Written by Laura Anslow

But Jesus said, “You feed them.”

"But we have only five loaves of bread and two fish,” they answered. “Or are you expecting us to go and buy enough food for this whole crowd?”

For there were about 5,000 men there.

Jesus replied, “Tell them to sit down in groups of about fifty each.”

So the people all sat down. Jesus took the five loaves and two fish, looked up toward heaven, and blessed them. Then, breaking the loaves into pieces, he kept giving the bread and fish to the disciples so they could distribute it to the people. They all ate as much as they wanted, and afterward, the disciples picked up twelve baskets of leftovers!

- Luke 9:13-17 (NLT)

Is it ever enough?

What we have – is it ever enough for what we really need?

Have you ever asked yourself that question?

Do you ever have enough time? Do you ever walk through your day with enough patience? Or are you like me and wonder if you’ll have enough strength for the day? Or faith and hope for the days ahead in these uncertain times? I am keenly aware of the fact that I never have enough wisdom for the parenting journey.

However, when we read this story of Jesus feeding the five thousand, we can see that when we place what we have in the hands of Jesus, it is always more than enough. More than enough for what we need and for those around us.

Jesus takes what the little boy offers: a simple meal, of not enough bread or fish for even the twelve disciples. Then He blesses it, breaks it, and turns it into enough for five thousand people. That is almost incomprehensible in my mind. Enough food for five thousand people, with leftovers!! I make dinner for my tribe of six and with two teenagers I rarely have leftovers anymore.

Offer What You Have

Let’s look closer at the process of the story. Jesus first takes the offering. So, before any blessing, or any multiplication, before any supplying of needs, we need to offer what we have to Jesus. Is this why, perhaps, we feel like we never have enough because we struggle with this first part of the process? The offering it to Jesus part? We try and hold on, try to make it work in our own strength, with our own wisdom. I am guilty of this far too often. Though I know that letting go and handing it over to Jesus is the vital first step of the process.

Your offering may only be little. You may only have a small amount of courage. Your strength may be dwindling and your patience quickly running out. Whatever you have, even if it is small and seemingly insignificant compared to the task at hand, offering it to Jesus will be the beginning of your freedom and provision. You will be free from the pressure to make it work, to hold it all together, to be seen as strong and capable.

Offering your little to Jesus means you don’t ever have to wonder if it will be enough, because in His hands, it is always enough of all that we need.

Secondly, Jesus blesses it, and breaks it, and gives it out. I don’t know about you, but I’m pretty sure I would not be rushing to sign up for that part of the process. I would sign up for the blessing, but the brokenness and the given part, I am not so sure about.